all that glitters isn't gold...

okay. i'll admit it. i spend every waking moment comparing myself to other people, mostly girls. okay, maybe not EVERY waking moment...but ALOT of those moments.
so what do i do when i compare myself to another girl? first off, does it look like she ate wendy's or rice cakes for lunch---if you know what i mean. then i move on to the other observations,"is she skinnier than me? how's her skin? what about her hair? are her nails painted? what kind of clothes is she wearing? is that a knockoff purse?". anyway, you get the idea. so basically, i can make conclusions about a person even about their personality within 20 seconds of meeting them. anybody can, really.
so, i have to ask myself the question, "how does comparing myself to anyone help anything?".
here's one of my favorite quotes from mean girls-LOVE that movie:
"calling somebody else fat won't make you any skinnier. calling someone stupid doesn't make you any smarter. and ruining regina george's life definitely didn't make me any happier. All you can do in life is try to solve the problem in front of you."
brilliant, right? well, while we're quoting mean girls:
gretchen: and even in fancy countries like the united states and england, seven out of ten girls have a negative body image.
regina george: who cares? Six of those girls are right!

hahahaha i love that one. okay, sorry. i'm done with the quotes, but i have to say that both of those quotes are TOTALLY accurate.
why is it that when i see a girl with skinner legs, a smaller waist, bigger boobs, or longer hair i just want to go DIE?!
and as long as we're throwin' out confessions, i DO think i'm fat when i look in the mirror even though i KNOW i'm NOT! why do i feel so inferior to other girls? why does ANY girl feel inferior to other girls?? why do i have to be better than another girl? why do i have to be better than ANYONE?! why can't i just be me? and the best version of me? and the me who loves life and doesn't worry about how fat i look?
obviously not ALL people think the way i do, but i do know that ALOT of people do.
why can't i just go up to a girl who has skinner legs than me and say, "wow, you're really pretty!"? i'll tell you why! because SHE CAN'T BE BETTER THAN ME! and why can't she be better than me? because then i'll feel bad about myself. okay, REALLY??? i don't think we should go around comparing our weaknesses with other people's strengths.
just sayin'.